Is it fair?

A creeping barrage of guilt and shame,
Comes closer to my fragile frame,
I cannot run, I cannot hide,
From the truth that burns me from the inside.

Do you know, do you care,
is it even fair?
that you must suffer this creeping barrage too,
in the name of love and trust
that we always share.

Twitter and beyond

I signed off from Twitter tonight with the thought of ' why do i care?'

I mean I hardly know people on there and they hardly know me, but after a few 140 character tweets we feel we do.

We laugh with them, argue with them sometimes cry with them.

But in the end when we switch off the computer or phone most of them we forget.

I have been lucky to have met some wonderful and inspirational people on there and in rare cases have met them face to face.

But are they friendships or not?

I suppose my definition is that if after 'getting to know them' on twitter u speak on the phone then it more than just 140 letters and a profile pic, you can hear them and they are real people.

I'm not suggesting we should all swap numbers and I certainly would give my number out to any so and so, but Twitter can be the start of something special.

To the ones who know I care about deeply on Twitter (some more than I should) I am glad to have you in my virtual and real life.

Free

I fly in my sleep
through towns & cities
down rivers & seas
no rules
no laws
no violence
no wars
free of pain
free of regret
my heart beats faster
I fall to towards the ground
BOOM
I wake with a start
I'm back in that room
machines beeping
my body not working
I want to be gone
I want to be free
I want to fly forever
but life won't allow me to be.

Putting things in sharp focus!

I have just come out of the worst depression I have ever experienced. All built up by my job loss, looking extensively for a new one and going straight into a new job that I am not too happy with.

I felt nothing, I wanted to see no one and I just kept thinking about how 'unlucky' I was!

Then on Sunday I decided enough was enough and I have tried since then to think only positive things and smile. But as the title of this entry says I saw something on TV that put things into sharp focus, it was a programme on teenagers with cancer on channel 4.

These brave people are going through the worse possible pain and sickness but have so much dignity and spirit. The one that still sticks in my mind was a girl who had a brain tumor and was hoping to go home in 4 weeks after her treatment finished. She was so brave, so bright, then she suddenly died in her mother's arms!

I suppose my message to myself and too other with depression is yes it's a hard path we walk but it is nothing compared to what these teenagers and other go through on a daily basis.

We are healthy, we are lucky and we are alive. Every breath we take is something we should treasure, look around and see the world for all the possibilities it can offer, you never know what's around the corner!

?

Am I the man behind the glasses?
or
The glasses behind the man?

Gag of the day!

Two cannibals are eating by an open fire,
One says to the other "I don't like your wife!"
The other looks up and says "Well, just eat your chips then!"

The dark side of Twitter

I always assumed Twitter was a place where everyone gets along and people can just be themselves, However some of my Twitter friends have been getting 'bad' tweets.

Rude comments, innuendo's and threats!

Yes it's a place where free speech is a right but to just be hurtful is a disgrace and these people should basically keep there views to themselves.

My friends don't deserve these messages, they are lovely people who do not deserve this kinda shit.

I hope Twitter doesn't go the way of the real world, let it stay a nice place where everyone gets along.

Just as the real world should be if it tried!